Little wins.

I shaved my head completely on Friday night, right down to the scalp. It was hard because now I look sick, where as before it just looked like I had opted for an edgier look. Nick and I both cried, he looked at me and said "I never thought I would ever be shaving my girlfriends head because she had cancer." They are taking the two things that make me personally feel like woman, my hair and breasts. I feel ugly, especially when I am intimate with Nick. I will get my mojo back once the chemo is over though. I am excited to get some new lingerie for my new breasts and my hair back. I am so lucky to have Nick, he says I am still the most beautiful girl he has ever seen.

I have started meetings with my Oncologist every three weeks where we speak about how the previous round of chemo. I am very blessed to have my Oncologist, Rose, on speed dial. I am allowed to text/call her whenever I want, whether it be for some reassurance or to discuss symptoms, she is always there for me.

On the 20th of August I went for my first meeting to discuss how the first round of chemo went. She explained that the Platelet drop is extremely rare and that they would decrease my dose slightly so I don't end up in hospital again. I also under went a breast examination to see if she felt any change. Much to my delight she said "It is far less lumpy. If I didn't know you had breast cancer I would say you have a normal breast." This was music to my ears. It is such early days and I will need to have a scan after my third treatment to see the progress we have made, but we are all still very happy.

Yesterday was a good day, in fact I was so up in the clouds I couldn't sleep till 1am this morning. Little wins, they keep me going. Bring on the 22nd of August for my second round of poisoning.